My Testimony

My name is Tanya and I’m madly in love with Jesus Christ. I didn’t know what love was until He came and swept me off my feet, pouring His love into me. He is everything to me. He changed my life drastically and I couldn’t imagine a moment without Him! In everything I do, I want to please God. He’s the One whom my soul loves, and I want my life to glorify Him and my heart and body to be poured out for Him as a living sacrifice. Since coming to Christ and receiving His forgiveness, I have been awe of His creation – it displays His character, attributes, glory, and splendor. From food, to sunsets, to flowers, His creation is oh so beautiful.

Experiencing the love of God has set my soul on fire. He consumes my mind, every second of the day. Because of an overflow of His perfect love, I write. I write, and write, and write about Him! I pray that God uses the words on this site to minister deeply to your heart. I pray that you, the reader, are drawn closer to Him and come to know the height, the depth, and magnitude of His love in ever so stronger ways. Jesus completely ravished my heart.

This Bible passage below is really special to my heart:

“I will allure her into the desert and speak tenderly to her there. I will make you my wife forever, showing you righteousness and justice, unfailing love and compassion.” (Hosea 2:14)

Regarding the prostitute who wiped Jesus’ feet with her hair, He says,

“I tell you, her sins—and they are many—have been forgiven, so she has shown me much love. But a person who is forgiven little shows only little love.” (Luke 7:47)

This is one of my favourite passages and I have oftentimes felt like this woman, coming to Christ with my tears and worship of thankfulness to His love, forgiveness and mercy over my life. I also came from a very ugly, violent and abusive background. Battered and beaten, abused in a multitude of ways throughout my life prior to Christ saving me, I was left feeeling worthless, without hope, and not having a clue what real love even remotely looked like or felt like.

But when Christ miraculously saved me that one beautiful wintery night in 2014, I fell madly in love with Him and became undyingly devoted to Him like nothing else. I couldn’t even think of anything else but Him! My heart became utterly obsessed and fixated on Him, as I experienced real love for the first time in my life. The love of God, which surpasses all understanding; the love where there is an impossibility to reach its limit.

I was consumed by God’s love for me, and my love for Him. And I still am. From the moment He saved me, I couldn’t get enough. He made me completely new, put worth and value and care into me, and radically changed my life.

I am a living testimony that God has a deep heart for women who have gone through torment and abuse. That He can take the most mistreated, abused, and and hated woman, rescue her, have mercy, compassion, and tenderness toward her, and fill her up with His love so powerfully and profoundly. He can take her from a place of hatred to a place of high value, love and honour. God is a King, a Warrior, a Rescuer and a Knight in Shining Armour! The way He sees His Bride is the deepest and most beautiful love imaginable. For He says,

“You are altogether beautiful, my darling, And there is no blemish in you.” Song of Songs 4:7

So with the way God has changed my life and ministered to me, so now I have a heart for women and desire to minister unto them, showing them that Jesus can be that first love they so ache to have. God can be the one who fills your every void, and satisfies that deep longing in your heart for the perfect love. He is love (1 John 4:8). By the amazing personal love of God, He restores our brokenness! He turns ashes into beauty.

“To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.” Isaiah 61:3

Once God rescued, redeemed, and saved me, and after I made Jesus my first love, He gave me the man of my dreams who would love me like Christ loves His bride. The man who God created and destined to be the one who would love me fully and unconditionally. The man God would use to heal me (his name means healer!) and show God’s grace, love, and mercy for me. A man who is Spirit-filled and full of the love of Christ. A man that I can love with all my heart and fully trust with everything in me, knowing that He was given by God to love and protect me. A man that God beautifully uses to manifest His own love for me. God redeems our brokenness and our painful pasts and gives us the most beautiful things in the world.

The man that God gave me isn’t just a man, but a man made perfectly for me, and a man after God’s own heart. ♥️

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